I was thinking of making cake for my friends at church <3 And my other friends too, next time I see them lol.

I kinda want to buy a mini heart cake mold :3

Omi said she had gotten some carrot cake mix for my birthday but never got the frosting. So I might go and get the frosting (Actually, I may have some left over at mom's house from Christmas too) and make little mini cakes for Valentine's day :3 I also got red decoration frosting, so I'm almost set for that. I just need to get my cupcake containers back from Muffy lol. Been meaning to do that for like 2 months now.

So yeah! mini heart-shaped carrot cakes. Of course I dream too much about more things lol, but that's the most I know I can definitely handle.


Right now I'm watching The Nanny's "Valentine's Schmalentines" marathon, too. It's quite obvious that I'm in that "spirit". Plus I love these old sitcoms.




I also saw the trailer for "Brooklyn's Finest", I sort of want to see that movie. Welsey Snipes is finally gonna be in a real movie after 3 years on shitty Direct-to-DVD movies lmao



It looks pretty good. Rumor is that the writer for this movie is also in the process of making a "New Jack City 2", which... speaking that it's the sequel of NJC, is epic on it's own. Apparently none of the old cast isn't gonna really come back for this movie, but as long as it's awesome, I don't care. Need to see this.


edit: And I'm thinking of sending some of my old, used clothes to Project Renewal. Apparently atm they're sending clothes over to Haiti and whatnot, so I was going to do that. I seriously need the extra space in my drawers anyways. But anyways, just in case anyone want to give in something too, let me know.

Amani: also GURL
Amani: Xiaxue made me wanna go to thailand
Nancy: new episode?
Nancy: isn't she in singapore?
Amani: naw on her blog
Amani: she went to thailand with her fiance on a short vacation
Amani: (right now she's in london for whatever reason)
Nancy: awwwww
Amani: she went to this place: http://andaraphuket.com/index.html
Amani: I WANT TO GO TO PHUKET BAWWWW
Nancy: I want a fucking villa
Amani: right?? ugh
Amani: their residential suites and villas have private pools and everything
Nancy: I wanna have my cramps in a tropical azn paradise @_@
Amani: LOL right
Amani: a place where the coldest they get is like 76 degrees
Nancy: WORD
Nancy: no need for hot water bottle ever
Nancy: just, bake in the sun
Nancy: aaaaaaah
Amani: natural therapy = w=
Amani: mmmmmmm
Amani: man, i need a resort to go to
Amani: fuck hawaii
and the Caribbean, the Caribbean is for cheap niggas
Nancy: lol I love PR
Nancy: quenepas for $1. I'm good
Nancy: oh, and acapurias
Nancy: otherwise I'd need that shit imported to tailand
Amani: lol word
Amani: empanadas to go, please

You know that stiff feeling in your back and spine where you want someone to just sit on it or lean into it really hard?

Yeah. Not a good feeling.


I downloaded Final Fantasy XIII OST. I love it, though I feel that they put Serah's theme into one too many songs. Not that's not a good song. There's a tiny bit of a mix-up with the music genres which is what I like.

( The nerd in me speaking )

Supposed to be ready to go to Beulah since the youth is having some sort of.. game-night chill session or whatever, but I'm still in bed, feeling stiff lol. I should get my ass up though.

Massage prz

Oh alsooooo

I never mentioned it but blasphemina's coming back to NYC in March for another fashion show at Dances of Vice.

Apparently the theme for March's DoV is Alice in Wonderland. So get um costumes ready 8D



Earlier FB chat:

Me: what is this about the DoV theme? D:
Sam: The ball is going to be in April so that will have the similar theme of a ballet. March is going to be Alice. It's going to be GRAWSOME!
Me: ohhhhh wait, you're talking about the Swan Lake theme? You're going to that one?
Sam: No no no, I'm doing the Alice one, last year the ball was in March, this year's April. I'm doing a normal March event with her. That one is Alice.
Me: OHHHHHH that makes sense lol.
Mmmmm Alice theme ♥ What shall I beeee
Sam: Dormouse!
Me: D: Why I gotta be that lil drunk nigga
lol then again I've always wondered how my booty will make trousers look


Though I was probably thinking bloomer-shorts. I got a thought in my head already :3 I'll draw it down and share soon

I love Michelle Phan so much. Her makeup tutorials look really professional for a home video and she's so informative about every little thing.

I was just watching her makeup-brush cleaning video and it made me love her even more x3 ((Let me not get started on her shoe-stretching video))







Also some of my other favorite makeup tutorials from her:








Even some of her more costumey stuff looks nice for some occasions. Especially her Avatar-inspired makeup, and her modern geisha look:







(Imagine how many cosplayers would look better if they had makeup skills like that???)

I'm feeling for her skincare line, IQQU, specifically her Jasmine Rice scrub (just because it sounds delicious ; w;)


But yeah. I probably blew up the f-list and slowed everyone's computers down, but I just wanted to share this anyways <3 I'm definitely feeling for some new makeup now!

My computer desk apparently came today, when it was supposed to only ship today. I didn't find out till around midnight, lulz. A+++, Staples.

So, me and Opi went to work on it until 4amish. Broke a couple of nails = w= Ah well.

But, it's done~ once I put most of my things in order, pulling out my CDs/DVDs/Vidya games now that they got a place to sit, I cleaned up my room altogether, since my bed haven't been done the whole time Angela was here lol. I also moved my extra bags into the space where my CDs once were, hidden from view, so now for the most part, my room looks clean and neat (with the exception of laundry just sitting on my desk lol) I rearranged my posters, put up one of Bobby Valentino and a really old FF X-2 one that I found with my music CDs. The walls look a bit evened out now, even when they're still mainly bare with 1-2 posters. Ah well, when I decide to get more, it'll get better and better. I wanna make an inspiration board of all the things that inspire me, fashion-wise, lifestyle-wise, and in terms of my inner thoughts. I also wanna make a seperate collage of all my friends/all the girls I have met. I still need to get them post-its and whatnot for those "inspirational words/scriptures" thing.

I also wanna get to getting a new tracfone and redecorate it to how I want it, except with permanent, wont-come-off-until-it-gets-ran-over-by-a-car glue.


My eyes been sort of irritated and burning every once in a while today, as if oil sort of leaked into them. I'm assuming it's me being an idiot and not properly washing makeup off my face. Maybe also a sign from God telling me to sleep for once. Hm.

So, I was being nosy and found out that my cousin had gotten herself in trouble -yet again-.

( Here we go again... )



ANYWAYS, my birthday. ( 80% of the plans ended to be a bust )

I had took Angela to the airport this morning, but she ended up missing her flight and having to buy another ticket for later in the day. Fucking sucks, if we didn't miss the first bus, and if the A/C wasn't being so slow to getting to the train stops. :/ I told Omi and even Omi thought she should've been able to make it. That's MTA for you, I guess.

After dropping her off I went to Harlem, looked around for a bit, and then went to Kinokuniya, then Book-Off where I managed to get a FF12 strategy guide for 3 BUCKS (win!) and also lol The Little Princess for a buck, no thanks to nostalgia. I might end up selling a lot of my kids books to Book-off, though I don't know how much that'll come out to, they said it would usually be anywhere between .30 - 1.50, depending on the type of book, condition, etc. Sooo maybe. I know I can make at LEAST about 20 bucks from my old books, which is better than nothing atm. (Plus more space for me~)

I'm waiting for my computer desk to get here, before thinking about getting anymore furniture for my room. Though I know I definitely need a bookcase, a small one the very least, and then I want an armoire for all my dresses and other clothes that need to be hanged. I'm gonna start measuring and pretend to move things/place things to make sure they fit well before I actually ask to get them. I also want those little plastic storage drawers and stuff to put between the wall and my drawer by the TV, because in about two weeks I'll be getting my Xbox 360 and I need to put that and my PS2 somewhere, rather than sitting them out randomly. Then I'll just pile my bags on top of that lol. I was also thinking of those shoe storage things that go under the bed, but I dunno if it'll be good for my complicated bed. xD also, storage bags for whatever other clothes I got, oh and for bedsheets and stuff. I need to free up my last drawer for my lolita skirts.


I think tomorrow's the first day of the term.. but I'm not gonna go. I already know I'm gonna have to come in on Wednesday. I didn't get a chance to see the schedule for this term, all I know that there are gonna be two Phys ed classes in the morning of Tues/Thurs that I am so not gonna make lol. Really though, it's really starting to suck that my school's having less and less phys. ed classes. Why should this even be required of us? We don't even have a proper gym, and only one teacher in our whole school with a license to teach Phys Ed. Like really.

I figure that I'll be signing up for the minimum classes I -need- to sign up for and not do most of them, just concentrate on Independent studies, especially my Phys Ed work. I need to get on top of that. I'm trying to go to to Yoga once a week (and eventually, twice/three times a week hopefully), and I go with one of my new friends, so if anyone wants to come along (Kelsey? Amy? Someone?) hopefully this will build into a steady thing :3

Amani: lmao
Amani: we went to cat's house yesterday and
Yanise: mhm
Amani: this chick
Amani: showed me this barbie coloring book
Amani: and the black barbie looks like me
Amani: we were rollin
Yanise: lawllll
Amani: http://www.flickr.com/photos/brookelynn23/401505884/sizes/l/
Amani: look at herlol
Yanise: LMFAO
Yanise: duuuude
Amani: LOL
Amani: IM GUESSING YOU AGREE
Yanise: yessss
Amani: LMAOO

Yeah so for whatever reason, for the past two weeks my LJ have been completely wonky in terms of posts that were "out of order".

I don't know -why- exactly it was doing it, but because of a post I made for later this month, it completely jacked up my posts. I didn't think of it until people pointed out that they weren't seeing my posts on their friends page anymore, despite being mutual friends.

The issue was that specific post. I don't know why. I had put it "out of order", like you usually do with wishlists and watchlists and whatnot, but with every post since I made that one post, it kept on saying to put either "Out of Order" on older post, or do it on this one.

The older post was already marked, so I've kept on just putting "out of order" on my things. Little did I know that it stopped posting my shit on people's friends pages, even though it doesn't usually do that anyways. Anywho, I fixed it now. (Just don't mind the time being ahead for now.)



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VALENTINE'S DAY-- well, technically, the day or two before, do anyone wanna meet up? I posted it in one of the "lost" posts in my LJ if you scroll down, but I was thinking of just chilling and going to either Sweetiepie, Serendipity, or Rose House. Though atm I'm leaning towards Rose House (they're giving their rose mugs away when you purchase their Afternoon tea meal, anddd their teacups and sets are 70% off [78 dollar teacup ---> 25-or-so bucks], buy 2 teas (boxes) and get one free, anddd I want to try and get their bags that come with orders of $180 or more. lol I think someone had gotten a bag during the winter tea party and I didn't know about them till then. So. I want it lol.

I was thinking about movies and stuff but eh... we're still recovering from the winter holidays and then Valentine's day is coming up for those who have their boos... so what better way to get together for Valentine's day than getting high off of tea and food like the frivolous beings we are?

Besides that I wanted to show Yanise the cheap ass bentos and other shit they have in Queen's Crossing. Which I totally didn't realize they had until today. I have to go back to the store with the room decor and crap, I need prices and something fresh to fap to.



Other than that, I want opinions. Anddd birthday post won't come till later. I need to wait until Angela is on her flight back to Pittsburgh, so I can lay down and like, sleep more or something lol.


P.S. I'm still in school.

Sometimes when Omi talks about when I was a little girl, motivated and hopeful, I want to tell her that the little girl is gone.

I know the issues with my dad have to do with my depression and my lack of confidence in finishing what I have to do. But, I feel like fixing my problems won't make me as happy as I used to be.




Sometimes though, I do wish that I was just as clueless about the world and reality as I was when I was 6 years old. My dreams are anything but worldly-- but that kind of carefree living gets you killed quick.

So, Valentine's day. Movies followed by Serendipity or Sweetiepie? :3

Also, I'm making it on Saturday, Feb 13th rather than on the day itself. I got church and... things to do, and I know some people want to get some nookie on V-day so yeah >w>

Also, I love Nori. His attempts to understand the English language are so cute and funny.

We had to explain to him what "auto-erotic asphyxiation" was, what is "jungle fever"/"yellow fever", and that whatever Cat was saying (was it splotch? something like that, I forget) meant jizz, and after saying "iku" he was like, making the hand gesture towards Cat while he was trying to understand how it's slang and how we use it in a sentence xD

SDJSBKHIBGFHDHS It was just all around lulz, and involved some beer but that's ok. It was real cool.

Someone seriously needs to teach him slang and stuff though, he said he had went to a club and asked a white girl "are you bootyricious?"

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeahhhhhhhhno. lololo I was dyin.

Now it's almost a week until my birthday! I'm glad I have a lot of things planned out with all my friends, compared to the simple get-together with Amy and people last year-ish, or the two eventless birthdays 2 years before. I was never used to going out, or had the money to, but since the summertime I've been wanting some sort of release through partying and whatnot.

( Cut, for your sake )


I'm gonna start changing up my wardrobe. I'm seriously considering selling more things, other than what's in my last post; e.x. my red polkadot skirt, and maybe even the whitexpink one I have-- the ultra-sweet and really loud colors are sort of tiring me, and I'm trying to switch my shit around to more color schemes, and what suits me. I won a mint rose-gingham sk, and if it fits I'll probably sell off my jsk; though, if it doesn't fit, I kinda wouldn't want to sell it back, I think I'd rather get it altered, which if I do, I'll probably use the jsk's waist ties to do it. I love how the jsk felt on me, but the whole empire-waist is just not me in a lot of cases.

I'm also gonna start hunting for the stuff that I absolutely want, which at the moment, is pretty much the mint Melty Chocolate skirt, and that's it. I need to get more offbrand, custom-made blouses, OTK and thigh-high socks, and shoes. bags and accessories need to sort of wait, though I know I need new bags def.

I'm also trying to put myself back on the grind and start trying to save, just in case I end up affording enough to go with Cat to Japan for 3 weeks. I'm starting to get a bit of cashflow, I dunno whether it's allowance or not, but I am. Just maybe it'll happen :P Otherwise, that money will definitely be going towards new clothes (and the certificate program, once I get my diploma).

I'm beyond excited that bourgeoisiesexy is coming and staying over at my place for the weekend again~ we're gonna have so much fun! Fuck yes. I'm glad I've met some awesome people from online IRL. This is how the internets should be useddddddd.

Things to sell:
- The uh... BTSSB cherry pie recipe knee-high socks. Whatever they were called.
- AATP t-shirt
- tartan skirt
- AP pink beret
- BTSSB long-sleeved custew blouse


I also succumbed to the evils of online auctioning and won myself a mint Gingham Rose skirt =w= so depending on how that fits, I'm either gonna sell my Rose gingham jsk, or resell the skirt.

I was thinking of selling one of my pink bows too but.. I'm not ready to yet = A=

My Facebook and Twitter keeps on redirecting to Myspace, again.

I honestly don't get it, because I know it's the router, and as far as I saw online, Linksys does nothing to fix it when it can potentially be a hazard (in terms of hacking and stuff). There's a "solution" but when I attempted it, eventually the router didn't wanna connect with my stuff anymore, so I had to take it off.

Maybe I did it in the wrong place, but either way, I wish Linksys would get off their asses and fix it, because it's the same model for everyone's issues, and with different people across the country.


Also, until Feb 14th I have no choice but to keep on putting my posts "out of date", because LJ is being retarded.

She's home now.

They gave her a tetanus shot, and like the usual Kings County hospital, took hours and hours just to get simple things done. (Did I ever mention how I was born there? No? Oh jeez.)

She got her cut straight down the middle on top of her head, she's lucky that her face didn't get cut up too.

Her feet are bruised purple, her toes are an even darker purple, it looks horrid...

and then her left arm is bothering her a lot, she says it feels like was broken because the bruising hurts that much. Not to mention the arthritis so. yeah. It didn't look bad but I wouldn't be surprised if it turned black and blue by the morning time.


After all that I can't help but be a little bit pissed. I know some people joke to put the humor in things, but I can't do that. Maybe I lost my sense of humor in some cases?

Ionno, I don't find the fact that a 77-year old woman fell down the hard-ass stairs leading to the basement funny at all. If that happened to me, I wouldn't even joke about it. From the top of those stairs all the way to the floor? Heck no.

It's a miracle that she came out with no broken bones, no concussion, only bruises and a few stitches. Lord knows how many times I will be praying about that.